Running a way from a secret lover???

Running a way from a secret lover. I have not quite understood what make some people go crazy over me. I have had couple of instances where I missed out on some broads. I will admit those few misses makes you real, it makes you feel human. I will say that I am not a man who chases after women. But when opportunity presents itself and the lady passes my check list --- I move with the speed of a jaguar.

Now back to my secret lover, she lives in California, and I lived at the time of our intimacy in Fort Wayne, IN. For me, it makes me feel safe to have her far away. I knew I could not just bump into her. I made sure "that" for getting together for moments of pleasurable embrace; it will not be accidental, and when we did meet it was planned and it gave way to truly unending stream of raw pleasure.

Being with her had some values --- it made me see what it would be like to be with another woman and it helped me to re-assure my self in the power of sexual intimacy to heal all known ailments, howbeit psychological ailments. I shied away from kissing her, more so because that was something you did with the wifey and not with a woman who for all practical purposes gave herself to me.

One thing that I felt was how soft her lips were when they pressed against mine in moment of close embrace, I felt her heart beating fast, almost like it was crying for me to take her, right there and then --- I pulled my self back a little in an effort to re assert that I am in control of my world. ..tbc.